Me and my secrets

I just deleted a post. I'm working on being more open and honest and sharing stories and myself. Being a Scorpio, I have a lot of resistence to the idea.

Even anonymously there are things I'm not quite up to talking about.

I'm okay, things are going to be okay, but right now I have to know more about what is going on before I talk about it. I'm really at a loss for words even. I know it's cheesy but I'm even afraid to give words to that big bad thing that happened. I'm afraid it will make it real, and really the whole drama with 'what happened' is about the meaning and attaching meaning to the events.

I'm not trying to be cryptic, I'm just working it out in my mind...