Cusp This!

Thursday, January 24, 2008


Last night I dreamt I was a gay man trying to get laid. In my dream this was no better than me as a straight woman trying to get laid.

Having a slightly silly low pressure job just makes me itchy all over for a high-drama relationship.

I think it's a good thing that I can recognize this.

My roommate has promised to go bar hopping with me. However I'm concerned that she's not the greatest wing-woman that ever happened. I'm not sure if random bar-hopping is the best way to meet a high-drama relationship either, but I'll find one. Because having hot sex with someone that I can then think and wonder about a a few hours a day will fulfill me for a while. The best way to achieve this is to have said sex-toy be HOT. Then I get to obsess about if I'm hot enough or get all jealously fired up that other girls are all about my hot sex toy. These are distration tactics that have worked in the past and considering that I'm not running for congress or anything that would take real interest and effort on my part, I think hot, jealousy-inducing man is just what I want.

I wonder if other people are as insane as this.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

New post

Well, I'm going to stay here full-time. I think it might get busy sometimes-- but NOT TODAY!

My plan is to become very rich while working here.


I'll let you know how that goes. I think the salary is def a step in the right direction. I hope to turn that step into a hop asap.

Friday, January 11, 2008

Social Networking

is all fine and dandy until you see pictures of your ex with his new girlfriend. He looks good and she looks happy. In T's case he doesn't look that good.

I had this really great 'done with it moment' and now I just want to backslide. This is why I shouldn't be left unsupervised in front of a computer.

Damn it.

What the F*ck is up with that? Just old school possesiveness probably. I'm old fashioned like that.

Thursday, January 03, 2008

2008--and a triumphant return!

Well, 2007 went out with a bang, I left my last job. It was extremely stressful--the events leading up to it, being unemployed etc. Now I'm temping. This is ironic since my last position was HR. The good news is that after 20 minutes, and now again after 7 days this position will probably become a full-time real-life job. I'm going to chat with them about that tomorrow.

The other good thing is that this position is so low stress. I'd forgotten what a job could be like (aka not like demons gnawing on one's brain). So, I feel confident saying that the triumphant return of YB is upon us. I have time to navel-gaze once more. Become another brilliant and under-challenged member of the work-force. I could even have this position and take night classes, yo.

I could get a PhD here...

It sorta reminds me of my old admin days. I did get a lot of navel-gazing done back then: dating inappropriate men, leaching all the possible meanings out of trivial conversations, obsessing over rumors and other people's business...


I'll keep you posted.