Cusp This!

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

just thinking...

I know that lots of the media stories have spoken about the Iraq war passing the amount of time that the US was involved in WWII. The thing is in WWII we overthrew a government. In Iraq we are stuck trying to overthrow an idea. Over 200 years of brilliant scientific minds have yet to overthrow people who believe in creationism.

I was just thinking how screwed we are. And how much the WWII analogy just points that up.

Monday, November 27, 2006


I had a lovely Thanksgiving down south where my 3 person family went for lamb over turkey. There are three of us so we usually shirk tradition partially if not fully. I hope you all had a lovely holiday also.

So, I spoke with my dear friend d about reading MiddleMarch. I was even thinking of "live-blogging" it a la is taking on Moby Dick.

I feel hearing my amateur criticisms of George Elliot might be at the least a little more consistent than my sexual encounters...

Barnes and Noble here I come!

Sunday, November 19, 2006

deductive reasoning

Clearly I must hate the weekends.

I've always got some freaking sob story come Sunday about what happened. Today I got hit in the head by a fan and promptly decided that suicide would be the way to show that fan what for.

Luckily shortly thereafter I realize that not only is that stupid, but that only after being hit in the head with a fan would I make such poorly reasoned decisions.

So, it appears I will live through another week.

unless there are other fans that are in on this conspiracy.

Friday, November 17, 2006


So I did something hair-brained. Unless the term is hare-brained aka bunny-sized. I am unsure of the root of this saying.

I bought a ticket to Seattle. Without speaking to T. On the assumption that him once saying 'yeah...' when I said, 'I wish I could see your place,' was heartfelt. It didn't particularly go over well.

It led him to call me manipulative and selfish. Because going to visit someone is manipulative and selfish.

At the time that was not my intention at all. I thought I was being a little wild, but in a sweet, caring way. Now, after his reaction, I can see that it was pushy. But I don't really think that there's anything wrong with that. I forced his hand on a question I've been asking for months by putting a date on it. I'm sure he could have continued to tell me that he'd really like to see me someday forever. But it seems that he doesn't want to see me January 18th. I can just transfer the ticket for my friend St. Matthew's wedding in April.

I certainly don't like to think of myself as manipulative and selfish, but I'm not displeased to have done what I did and see the results of it.

Thursday, November 16, 2006


I bought a plane ticket to Seattle. For January.

It was the 4th message in my email about low fares to Seattle and I decided to take this as a sign from fate. Fate wants me to save money on my airfare!

T of course is not awake yet, so I just fucking did it. I sent him a text. I hope he's alright with me just showing up there.

Impulsive? Maybe. Calculating? A little. Unexpected? Yes.

I, of course, will let you know how it goes.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006


omg, I got stuff done today. It's amazing--I am completely shocked. I got stuff done. My project, the one I've been all worried and annoyed with, is going to get done. In the space of two hours, I now have eleven people committed to doing one task this week. I also have three others from the last meeting and me. I had no idea that this would happen....

I'm so happy.

Monday, November 13, 2006

where does depression hurt?

Stupid commercial. I hardly watch TV and I can vividly recall the background music. And the shot of the dog looking like it wants to play with it's sad why-are-you-depressed dog eyes.

I'm not depressed exactly, but I am blue. I'm working on a project for alumni from my college and it just seems like no one cares. I want to give up. A lot. Making a difference is too hard. I'd rather just feel sorry for myself and watch tv.

The whole thing is pretty frustrating.

I'm not even sure at this moment how to elaborate on this. So I will leave you with this insight:


Wednesday, November 08, 2006


So, for the first time in my history as a voter, I got what I want.

I am so happy.

Sunday, November 05, 2006


Since my best friend called the handful of text messages tossed between two-night stand and I "riveting" you are excused from having me write them out for you along with a time-line and my own emotional insights as discovered through these text messages.

I'm considering posting her email so you can send thank you notes.

Friday, November 03, 2006

Work: comparison / contrast

Work sucks because:

It occupies 87% of my time
It pays less than I feel I'm worth
I am not allowed to date anyone I meet in a work environment

Work rules because:

It gives me money for rent, groceries, and cocktails
It provides me with a minor sense of purpose
I now have two people who call me their supervisor, and that makes me feel um.. superior...

This is my treatise on work and career stuff.